12/30/2013
Well I’m going to make it quick this
week. I’m tired and its been a really long week, so I don’t have much to say.
We had a baptism Friday for the couple that we’ve been working with.
We finally got them married and then baptized! So besides the fact that baptisms are the
most stressful thing in the world, because we have to call all the members to
come and plan it all ourselves and clean the church the day of, it was great
because they were really ready to get baptized.
What a great day!
Like I said, this week was really
hard. I’m getting really frustrated with the fact that no one understands
what I’m saying still, my lessons are really bad, and I feel like I’m not doing
anything. I feel like this isn’t how it should be going. I’m worried the
spirit isn’t with us a lot, and I don’t know maybe I’m looking for the burning
bush when it’s really only a match….. I want to be a lot better than I am
right now. I want to be able communicate with people and I can’t. So that frustration has really hit an all-time
high. But I also think this will definitely be a learning experience.
Like I have said in other letters, I think this experience will make
my faith grow. I’m going to have to rely
on the lord and His power. I may feel
like I’m doing nothing, but there are a lot of things I can’t see too. I have to have faith that the people will
understand me and that the spirit will speak to them. I have to have
faith that people will keep commitments.
I have to have faith that I can do this, and that I was called here for
a reason. I have to have faith that I’m doing something important even
though I feel like I’m not doing enough. And above all, I need to remember that
this is the Lord’s work and it will carry on how He wants it too. I think I’m
going to learn a bit of humility. I don’t like looking dumb, and learning
a new language tends to make you look dumb a lot. So I need to learn
humility and just accept help in the language, in the lessons, and in other
things that I need to change. I also think I will learn a bit of
patience. I can’t expect everything to be perfect at first, or ever
really. Jordan Burroughs didn’t get good at wrestling in four months, and I can’t
expect that I will be an awesome missionary in four months either. I just need
to be patient and continually try to be better. So your letters today really
helped me. I also do need to work a little harder because as I do that,
all the other worries I have won’t be important. I need lose myself in
the work as the saying goes. And I’m exhausted all the time, so maybe I’m doing
that part right. But I feel like I’m not
and can always do more for sure. So I’ve got some things to learn. The
mission is definitely changing me! Love
you guys!
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